Early in 2022, I was in my Spiritual Life Coaching certification course and there came a point of making a commitment to myself. It seemed simple at the time. It was to say “Yes” to life, “Yes” to remembering my truth, and “Yes” to the universe supporting me.
Little did I realize at the time how much these simple intentions would affect me.
Saying “Yes” to life. How many times do you turn down something or tell yourself not right now? I was constantly doing this. I would have an idea about going on a day or overnight trip, think about it, getting all ready in my mind to do it, and then when the time came, I would not go or cut the trip short. I could find an excuse to justify being at home. Same with making purchases. I was really good at buying the groceries that are on sale and proud of how frugal I was, but then I found out I needed to improve the quality of my nutrition – and that required a significant investment. This was a difficult shift for me because I literally doubled my grocery bill unexpectedly.
First, I started by taking a big deep breath and feeling into my decisions instead of rationalizing them with my mind.
Second, I repeating over and over to myself “I love myself, I am investing in my health.”
Saying “Yes” to remembering my truth. This one was truly something I was not prepared for. I have been speaking about living authentically, bring true to myself, accepting myself for all of me – good, bad, ugly, sparkly, etc., for years. What I didn’t realize is that some of what I thought was me and mine turned out to be programming that I had received from my upbringing and what I had been told by other people that I should value throughout my life. I thought I was being authentic – but I was actually living according to programming that I had received along my life’s journey. Living according to what others thought was best for me.
I had blocked my intuition. I believed that I was all alone and that I was a victim of the events and circumstances in my life. I was also in denial and couldn’t really see and accept the beauty that was my truth. I had built layers of protection and kept things and people at a distance. Yet, I was looking for love and acceptance from people outside of myself. I had lost my ability to trust my decisions, love who I really was, and feel like I was worth the space that I took up on this planet.
Truth resonates at our core. We can feel it when we come across it. We begin to peel back all of the things that aren't aligned with our truth like protection mechanisms, coping strategies, thoughts about how we are supposed to live our life. Our outer world becomes the reflection of what is going on inside of us. This journey back to who we were born to be, isn't for everyone. This journey requires courage and the ability to accept what shows up along the way.
And there is help! I was introduced to a road map of me. I found that studying this information allowed me to see the truth, both the shadow of me as well as the gift of me. By seeing that I was actually designed to be a certain way, I could start to see the truth more clearly. I could see my uniqueness, my value, I could accept me as I am. I could stop feeling like I needed to fit in anymore. I could start using my intuition again. I could learn how to make decisions that were right for me regardless of what others thought or wanted me to do. I could find words that were uplifting and empowering for my experiences. I could break the patterns of stress and start to embody peace. I smile more. I breathe deeper. I am more at peace in my own skin. I am saying “yes” more, and I can see know that everything is perfectly aligned and right on time for me on my path.
Transitions in life can be difficult, and sometimes feeling seen and heard, knowing that you are not alone, is truly supportive. I am a coach, a guide, and a healer. If you are ready to breathe, smile, and feel more peace in your body, then contact me to remember your truth and rewrite the story of you.